.: yukun :.

Ve-SUCK Day.

Not in any fucking mood. Hardly slept. Work up damn early today because my dad was groaning from chest pains. Rushed him to the hospital. The doctor's not sure but he has his suspicion so a series of blood tests will be conducted. We will only know the result late Friday or Saturday because the labs are closed for Vesak Day. Like WHAT THE FUCK? I have to work on a public holiday and fucking medical test labs are closed to go celebrate the Buddha's birthday? Fucking ironic, isn't it? This is seriously FUCKED UP beyond any words I can conjure! What next? Hospitals can't admit you because it's Christmas and all the nurses and doctors have gone home to open their fucking presents. And don't get me started with the high cost of medical health here. It's like being robbed legally. For fuck sake, a hotel suite in New York don't cost as much as lying in a cold observation room for 5 hours.

Just got home. Really not in the right frame of mind for anything when I have ONE MORE new concern to deal with. I can only hope for the best for my dad. I'm really not in a good place in my life right now to deal with anything that extreme.

Why does one bad thing after the next keep happening to me? Come Monday, I'm being pulled to Court for not filing tax returns of a company that has since been closed since 2005. And it's "my fault" that the tax department did not update their system regarding my change of address and the company's closure. I'm being charged a hefty summon for their cocking-up of sending the tax return forms to the wrong address. How fucked-up is that? Sure, I can appeal... means I need to pay a lawyer to do so. In the end, the fucking process will incur a higher cost. The fucking legal system here's really mercenary.

I don't know how much strength left I have to go on if my life keeps hitting one bump after another... especially when I have no one to turn to for comfort during in my darkest hours. My engine is about to run out of steam if this keeps going on. Guess I just have to suck it up and brace myself for whatever...


Anyway, for those that need not work today, enjoy the midweek holiday. Hope your lives are not as sucky. I need a fucking stiff drink really bad.

Hope the little "hic-up" regarding the MOS gig is resolved. Really looking forward to banging it up with an up-for-it audience... like the good old Centro / Liquid Room days. Angry Music Inc. stylee! Otherwise, this weekend is going to be a real dissappointing and shitty one.

And I'm REALLY NOT IN THE MOOD to deal with any stupidity or any typically moronic crap at the moment. The next person that ask me a really fucking dumb question will be asked to go to the nearest 7-11 to buy a super-size cup of "go-fuck-yourself".

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STICKY : Progressions @ MOS

PROGRESSIONS @ Ministry Of Sound (Singapore)
2 June (Saturday) 2007

Cover charges on 2 JUNE
Before 10.30pm - $15 for men and $12 for ladies
(both covers include 1 drink) and
After 10.30pm - $25 for men and $20 for ladies
(both covers include 2 drinks)

Opening and Closing set by Effen.
Yukun & P@t from 12 midnite till 4am.

Yukun started his DJing career in 1991 and was launched into the public eye with repeated guest appearance at Zouk’s “Sessions”. He has garnered over a decade of deck and studio experience and over the last 5 years, amassed worthy mentions and credits from all the big international boys after securing the spot of support DJ for the Gatecrasher tours in Singapore.

In the past years, the popularity and hype revolving around his name has rocketed sky high whilst DJing alongside stellar gods such as Hybrid, Paul van Dyk, Scott Bond, Above & Beyond, Solarstone, Agnelli & Nelson, Pulser, Matt Darey, John Askew, Kyau vs Albert, The Thrillseekers, Lange, Misja Helsloot, Gareth Emery and Mike Koglin…

He has been featured with several guest mix sets for the likes of Solarstone's Deep Blue Radio Show and John Askew's show on VONYC. And dabbling in the world of uber cool afterhours sound, Yukun has also been featured many times on Singapore's Lush 99.5 FM's mix show and is currently hosting his weekly mid-week show with the station.

Effen stormed into the club scene in 2005, with his first club appearance at Zouk's bi-yearly event Localized!. Since then, he has graced the decks of other top clubs in Singapore such as Onyx, DXO and Liquid Room. He is notorious for tearing dancefloors apart with his main sets, weaving seamlessly the sounds of melodic trance,tech-trance and percussive techno, all into one cutting edge, mind-bending, sonic performance.

P@t, known for his trademark thumping styles and his bag of surprises, With countless guest slots in Malaysia, Thailand and Singapore under his belt, adds even more flavour to this night.

posted by Adminstrator @ 2:56 AM 0 comments

Silver Part-ied!

We're at the tail end of the Asahi Silver Party. Pretty good night. No usual anthems in sight. Just downright good quality friendly-sounding House Music. Many thanks to David of The Vibesetters for DJing at the event. Maybe for the next one, we get Amanda Electrico onboard to spice things up another notch.

Now I'm just feeling quite a bit tired out... mentally and physically. Really need to switch my cellphone off, put on the new Diana Krall CD on repeat, crank up the aircon and crash out big time on Vesak Day till evening or something... major recharge and then get back to work at night.

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Lush FM Radio Show Updates

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Another part of me died today?

"Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing
Take away the words that rhyme
It doesn't mean a thing."


Tonight, I light a candle for you and me,
And the times we had.

posted by Adminstrator @ 5:21 PM 0 comments

Going downhill...

Taken from the 11-episode Japanese drama of the same name ("First Love"). I remember rushing back each week to watch it back in the earlier part of 2002. Lately, I find myself in an emotional train wreck and while clearing some of my stuff, I chanced upon Utada Hikaru's album. Listening to the track right now for the 8th repeat and it's killing me inside :(

Current Mood :

posted by Adminstrator @ 4:10 AM 0 comments

Another Fucking Monday Blues!

Today's mood :
"Heaven knows I'm miserable now..."


but whatever it is,
and for a safe and hygienic oral sex...

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Another Fucking Sunday wasted sleeping away!

Woke up in the evening feeling even more lethagic then ever. Pissed off that there isn't much of a bloody day left... YET AGAIN! So much about having a fucking life!

Decided to prepare a steamboat dinner for my folks and my sister so I went to the nearby supermarket at the mall to buy the necessary ingredients and groceries. *sigh* I used to do this some time back... at this particular supermarket which I haven't visited for over a year. It's been a while. Hmmmm...

Anyway, dinner's done. Everyone's happily fed. I'm fed, but not really in a happy mood. But I'm glad that I was able to sit down with my family over a long dinner and actually talk to them, more like listening to my father rant about "the state of the nation". See where I get the ability to bitch and rant about almost anything under the sun?

Another long week ahead. Kind of physically and mentally exhausted. Need to do a short getaway just to recharge. Then again, as if I have the fucking time! :(

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I miss you...

posted by Adminstrator @ 5:24 AM 0 comments

Like a bridge over troubled waters.

Thanks for noticing and for trying to get it out of me. I really wish I could share but unfortunately I can't. Not with you (readers), not with any close friends or with my immediate family. It's just a case of some personal demons that I've failed to exorcized and they're back to taunt me. It shows on my face because I'm one person that does not hide behind a false smile. Very much like how I don't mince my words and tell you like it is, what you see is what you get.

I'm sort of like an open book... in some ways. If I'm down, you'll know it. I won't talk much in a conversation. I'll be the least interested in anything at all. My mind will be wondering constantly. I'll seem quite distant. For how long? I really don't know. Until I find my happiness again, perhaps?



Sorry if any of you feels that I've changed from my usual self. Nothing stays the same... musically, creativity or personality. I've decided to retreat into a minority in terms of thought. I'm too messed up now. Too many questions on my mind.

posted by Adminstrator @ 2:22 PM 0 comments

Sorry, I really can't do much...

I'm not Jesus nor am I a magician. I don't do miracles or pull rabbits out of a hat. Much as I can earnestly help, try and advise, there is little I can do if there isn't much a luxury of time. I wish I was a Saviour too... but alas, "I'm only human, of flesh and blood I'm made"

In the meantime... good luck, keep strong and don't catch the flu bug. I've been down and out since Tuesday. Still very much feeling the effects of it. Ears are still stuffy. Nose is still blocked. Phlegm is still thick and goo-ey. Well another weekend, still got to work. Good luck with the mixing tonight. BOHICA... Bend Over Here It Comes Again!

Anyway, I miss watching Spongebob Squarepants... brings back such nice memories!

posted by Adminstrator @ 6:01 PM 0 comments

My emo weekend begins here!

I'm sure my life ain't as rosy and colourful as most of you. And I'm most definitely sure that not many have gone through the emotional rollercoaster that I'm constantly riding on. But one thing for sure, whether it's fucked-up, messed-up or not, all the moods I feel remind me that I'm still alive.

I guess I'm stuck with my personal demons and they're here to stay for good. But I believe I'll eventually find my rainbow's end. I'm not overally expecting much in life. Hoping to start afresh with a place to call my own (maybe in like a year or so?), a soulmate for me to return to (if that's destined), and a bath tub to soak my aching body... ok, plus a whole lot more of other things which can be achieved through hard work. Well, at least I know I've a long term goal that I'm working towards.



So the weekend begins. And not so strangely, I'm waiting anxiously for Sunday so that I can really sleep till the cows come home. Recovering from the flu bug but still very tired and lethagic. The less interested in anything at all. Even my jokes are lifeless. Oh well... just another day!

*makes coffee and pops in Dashboard Confessional CD album*

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A little pig called Puki

posted by Adminstrator @ 1:43 AM 0 comments

Are you listening?

Just watched the concluding episode of Heroes (Season 1). It's has proved to be so much better than the poor-excuse of a suspense-series called Prison Break; which by many's opinion is running thin in the plot department. The conclusion was indeed unexpected. How to stop an exploding man, indeed! And by God, I really hate Nathan and Peter's bitch-of-a-mother more than Sylar! Can't wait for Season 2... watch for the spoiler at the end.

Bad Ass Hiro!

posted by Adminstrator @ 4:33 PM 1 comments

You know you're surrounded by morons when...

Guy comes up to me when I was playing my bar set last night.

"Boss, got R&B or not?"

"Sorry we don't play that here."

"Why not? Everywhere also play."

"Err... that's why we don't play it."

"Nice what. Why don't play? Retro got or not? What about techno? I want to dedicate song to my girl over there, lah!"

At this point, I gave up "entertaining" his enquiries. Dude, it's a freaking laidback bar environment. Get your bearings right, please! In cases like these, guns should be legalized so as to rid the world of such idiots. As it is, I'm not exactly in the best of moods or health... last thing I really need is to deal with a moron. Sorry if this post seems harsh but I'm telling it like it is... as always. With people like that around, it really makes being a Singaporean... a crying shame!

Next time anyone ask for retro, I'm playing this. Hell yeah... Marilyn Manson! Satanic Goth at it's best! Now, how's that for retro? Speaking of which, I'm going to dig up all his CDs to keep me company this week! Nightmares are made of this.

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You'll walk alone!

I TOLD YOU SO!!!

Near-misses and mis-fires from Liverpool, much like their Premiership campaign this year!!! Just when it matters most, everyone starts firing blanks. Nonetheless, all too predictable. By the way, I don't care what the critics say but I think Peter Crouch is still a joke and would have a better career as a clown.

p/s I'm not anti-Liverpool. I don't have a favourite either. Whoever is the better bet for the day wins my vote. And this final was really a no-brainer.

posted by Adminstrator @ 5:01 AM 0 comments

Aspiring DJs...

Those that wish to enrol themselves... DENON DJ SCHOOL. Instructors are Enciks Razaq and Yukun. Desktop music publishing course is not ready just as yet.

In the meantime, I think for the next few days, I'm going to try and HOT shower my blues away. I really wish I had a fucking bath tub. And I need to get back to Sunday fishing soon... any therapy... anything to distract me from being down and out. I maybe on the verge of like a full emo-breakdown again due to the solitude :(



Punters for tonight's Champion's League final, don't go with your heart. You know that Liverpool's downfall this season has been their lack of finishing touches and the inability to score. Fact remains that they don't have an arsenal of SHARP strikers like Chelsea or Manchester United has. History won't repeat itself this time. AC Milan for the win within the 90 minutes. Don't say I didn't share...

posted by Adminstrator @ 9:36 PM 0 comments

I need tampons!

I'm about to leave for work. I've been having a fucking major nosebleed since 6pm. No, I was not watching porn or anything of the sort. It just came. I took a nap with an ice-pack on the bridge of my nose but when I work up, I look as if Freddy Krueger did a number on me.

My lower face, t-shirt and pillow were stained with blood. The shitty thing is that its still bleeding, like a runny nose but with only blood flowing out. Yes, I even thought of stuffing up tampons up my nostrils. I feel like a vagina during that time of the month. The last time I had such a massive nosebleed was about 20 years back when I was chased by an over-zealous cop after being caught for doing graffiti on an SOON-TO-BE-DEMOLISHED ABANDONED pre-war house. Yeah, I fell flat on my face coz the muthafucker throw his baton inbetween my legs.

posted by Adminstrator @ 8:15 PM 2 comments

Emo...

I went to HDB to settle some outstanding issues. Upon them showing me the photos they took of the flat for price evaluation, a sudden wave of emotions and memories which I thought I have already managed to subdue, overwhelmed me once again. It was home sweet home not so long ago and some of the best days of my life where spent there.

I'm truly sorry for us ending up like this. :~(

I need to go one corner and "emo" for a while.

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

posted by Adminstrator @ 3:41 PM 0 comments

Utterly miserable

That's me the entire night. I slept in the toilet because everything 15 - 20 minutes, I get a cough attack which will lead to me puking all over. Entire body aching at the same time. Migraine from coughing too much. Stuffy nose. Can't breathe or hear very well. And ****** is still missing :(

posted by Adminstrator @ 1:35 PM 1 comments

Lush FM Radio Show Updates

posted by Adminstrator @ 9:00 PM 0 comments

Sick again... hoo-fucking-ray!

Finally my body surrendered. Woke up to find myself down with fever, a nagging cough and a slight flu. Body-aching all over. Feeling absolutely shitty right now. *&#A^@)!

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It's all so quiet... shhh!

Nothing much to update because it's been a rather "quiet" day besides the usual weekly marketing meeting in the office in the early afternoon. Industry night was rather quiet tonight. I personally think that it would be more effective to make it a monthly instead. At least we'll get a critical mass turnout instead of just a diluted result each week. Keep the novelty fresh instead of flogging the horse to death.

I'm also currently looking for a missing person who has suddenly been out of contact since Friday. Will try tomorrow again.

Every day, there will be unfortunate incidents all around. Most of it are really not in anyone's control. Things will spiral if it's destined to. At the same time, there are also many great things that we should be thankful for. Thus how I live my life now, every night, I hold a silent prayer that no matter what, everything will eventually work out... for me and all around me. I don't wish for much nowadays. Just contentment and peace of mind.

For those that have emailed regarding the Snow Patrol and The Police video mash (see previous post), I managed to track down the remixer. Hailing from San Francisco, Party Ben was the Creative Director of Bay Area's Live 105 FM. The said track is hosted HERE on his site. Hey, if you got legality issues, go look for him. Apparently in the States, bootleg mixes are legally viewed as "parodies" and the huge mash-up scene there is actually aiding legit music sales of the original artistes. I for one enjoy the creativity and novelty behind such stuff.

Time to rest. Really tired.

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Mash-Up Video Of The Year!

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I will survive!

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So much for Sunday!

FUCK! So much for my only day off in the week. Spent the entire afternoon sleeping the time away to recuperate from the past six days and woke up only to find that it's already night... a couple more hours to midnight. Fuck! This can't go on. Every week! No fucking life and I'm falling ill again from the fatigue :(


In the papers today, one man was all it took...



To do this...

Look at sissy boy Cristiano, sitting all pretty and all!

posted by Adminstrator @ 9:35 PM 0 comments

Saturday Shenigans

Need to buy this really soon and stick this on my freaking forehead. I hate to be bugged in the middle of a DJ set (right in the mix) by (name withheld) that sprays instead of speaking. It's not the first time. Maybe from tomorrow onwards, I'll bring an umbrella / raincoat to work everyday. And also to stop the countless number of rude people who came to ask things like :

1. You've got Nine Inch Nails?
2. You've got Brazilian stuff?
3. You've got anything from Pussycat Dolls?
4. Hey, play Blanco... (inaudible)
5. Can I get 10 Bourbon Cokes?

I don't know where common decency went. Gone are the days that people see DJs at a respectable level. The way these "people" demand for their request is as if I owe them a pint of blood or something. Usually, I don't smile when someone flicks me a middle finger. In normal circumstances, I would have gone and snapped all your fingers in multiple places and then kicked you FIVE times in the testicles. You're lucky I'm very much more MELLOWED-OUT nowadays. Nonetheless, I don't need this discourteous shit. What's up with these fucking obnoxious foreign twats and dicks?

I'm sorry that we don't play industrial / heavy metal / rock / punk. But you don't have to be rude, asshole! And spare me that "what-the-fuck" frown when I said "sorry, I don't have any Brazilian stuff". This ain't Brazil. As for the Pussycat Dolls request from the drunken woman, for God's sake, stop shouting like a mad woman with an extra-large tampon stuck up your nostrils or something. Funnily, a few people were actually stupid enough to think that the new DJ booth is a bar. Like duh!? It's the first time anyone has come up to me and asked, "I want I blowjob." For a moment, I got like really fluttered then it occurred to me that the person was referring to the alcohol concoction. ;P

And all these while, I thought the local punters were bad! Oh well, all part and parcel of the job. Then again, maybe it's just an isolated one-off. Afterall, we all have our "off" days every now and then. We shall see next week. In the meantime, I just had the get the above out of my chest so that I can sleep easier tonight. I hate to keep anything that bugs the hell out of me. If it goes on, I'd have to look for my t-shirt that says...

Still tired. Going back to bed. Celebral department will be closed for the next few days. Very drained but I'll survive. And I think I'll go sample the high pitch voice of Satan's mother (my neighbour) and go work on some nasty breaks production later. I'm calling it "Me Versus You". Perhaps weekend, I'll bring my daughter and her Magnum... just in case!

DON'T BUG MY DADDY!!!

posted by Adminstrator @ 3:52 PM 0 comments

It's another quiet Sunday...

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

I guess it's my destiny to be constantly struggling and fighting
my own inner demons :(

posted by Adminstrator @ 6:19 AM 0 comments

Sunday's not here yet...

How to get through the rest of my life?
Face life without sentimentality. Without nostalgia.

I thought it was Sunday today. It feels like Sunday because my body's exhausted and I'm falling sick again. Fever and cough is back. Had to literally peel myself out of bed. Things to be done today... which unfortunately is not Sunday. Any-fuck-way, I'd probably spend the entire Sunday rotting away with utter boredom and emptiness. Fuck life! Fuck everything. The gloom merchant beckons.

And why do some tourist "ang mohs" (caucasians) think that we Asians are all dumbfucks? One goes up to our DJ at the bar and says he is a "big time trance DJ in Europe" and he wants to play his "shit". Pale face... you look more like a poor Weird Al Yankovic's attempt at being Eminem. Secondly, it's a fucking lounge setting, you fucking dimwit. Your "shit" is not appropriate. Thirdly, if you really think you can snook your way around, then you must be duller than a plate of spaghetti. Some people really have no shame at all. What's with these empty vessels?

No, it does not end here. Later on in the night some woman hands to the bar DJ a couple of CDs. Apparently, someone told her it's "Bring Your Own Music" night or something. Joss Stone's fine. But Michael Learns To Rock? You've got to be kidding me! I thought everyone has concluded that they should be treated like the bird flu... avoided at all costs. Jeez, some of you still have really "top notch" taste in music.

Stupidity was out in full force last night for sure. A european "dude" ask me if I had "the biggest hit in Europe right now by George Michael and Enya". When I said "Nope!" he gives me a "what-the-fuck" look. Hate to fucking kerb your enthusiasm or to call your bluff, the said track does not exist. If it did, it's probably a homemade bootleg mash-up... of which, will never be "BIG" anyway in the world on the mass market scale. Stop thinking we Asians are fucking ignorant.

Here's a toast to more stupidity later. Like I give a toss. Ha!

posted by Adminstrator @ 2:28 PM 0 comments

My other ambition was to be in a metal band!

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

posted by Adminstrator @ 5:36 AM 0 comments

It's not over, ok?

This is not a love song as with many others that have been mis-interpreted. It's about the state of the world and having hope despite any adversities that befalls us. No particular reason why I'm posting this. Just thought I'd share a really meaningful pop song with the rest of you. Have a nice weekend. I know I won't though.

Insider joke... We will always love Zidane for headbutting Marco "Meatball" Materazzi

posted by Adminstrator @ 2:26 PM 0 comments

State of me...

Day started fine but ended up thus far... not so good :(
Thanks to my insecurities and unstable emotional state.
Some of these negative things about me just never changes.
Hard as I try... I'm sorry.

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Quiz Time!

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*sigh*

posted by Adminstrator @ 11:08 PM 0 comments

Busy bee!

It's going to be a really "busy-bee" week. The club's in the midst of shifting it's console and it's a bit of a warzone at the moment although you can't really see the mess... we hid it well. A mass orgy of wires, Razaq's shoes, vinyls, CDs, cables from god-knows-where, my lost medication pills, extention plugs and etc. Before the end of the week, the DJ booth will be right smack at the edge of the dancefloor so that the punters will find it easier to flash us their cellphones requests at a more efficient rate :p

Also helping out with Dbl O's anniversary this Friday with their rehearsals. And on Saturday, will need to run over to Que Pasa to help out with a private party there as well, which Fred E will be playing a bar / downtempo / funk / house set.

It's all good, I guess. A good test of endurance and problem-solving skills. All I wish now is that I have a bath tub to soak myself in on Sunday. Alas, I don't have one at the moment. BUMMER!!!

Check back to the Progressions site for a surprising update.

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